June 15, 2010

He's ONE!

I can't begin to explain the relief, emotion and all the other things that come along with this day.

I'm thinking back over every nap and every bedtime where I anxiously laid him down while saying a prayer to God asking for him to be there when I came back. My heart still aches for our precious Lila Grace, but having Jude here eased so much of that pain and taught us so many lessons about what this life is really for. I am so thankful and you know what, I honestly don't feel "broken" anymore. My loss no longer controls my life. I feel blessed to have held that baby girl in my arms, even if that time was only 86 days long.. I'm still a mother of three precious kids regardless of their location, and I feel stronger than ever.

Thank you, God!
Our Jude is ONE!


  1. Happy Birthday Jude! What a wonderful day this must be for you, Carrie!

  2. Happy Birthday Jude! Such a great day! :)