February 16, 2010

Country Mom..

Where should I start? Well, I was actually an Eastern girl myself until about age 14 when my parents moved us to the Midwest. I met my husband, Josh, in high school. We started dating the summer before our senior year. After nearly 4 years of marriage we had baby #1, a spunky, strong willed little girl named Madelyn. 2 1/2 years later we had a tiny little baby girl who was calm & quiet, her name was Lila Grace. Lila faced many challenges, but all were fixable- like cleft palate, hearing loss in her right ear, etc… but other than that she was a beautiful, special little girl who would smile and melt your heart.. She passed away in 2008. We were never given a sure answer- they jumped from SIDS to pneumonia and back several times. Our pedi. informed us that sometimes there is just no way of knowing. Our hearts were broken, and that right there is an understatement, but there’s really no accurate way to describe with words how utterly helpless you feel when you lose your baby. She was less than a week away from being 3 months old. We went on to try again at building our family and were blessed with baby #3 in 2009... He was our first boy, we named him Jude. He helped heal our hearts and ease the pain of the loss. You can definitely never replace that little one you lost, but you can keep pushing forward in life and make every day count. If you’ve personally suffered from the loss of a child, I have to tell you- having a friend who knows how it feels is one of the main components of healing. It’s comforting to know that you can talk to some who “gets it” because they’ve been there themselves.
And well, in a nut shell, that’s a little about me and my Midwestern family…..so far.. I’m sure there’s more to come. Oh, and I'm a stay at home mom, I've tried working from home and working outside the home, but I don't like being away from my kiddos... so I've got lots of blogging, shopping and crafting time on my hands. That's all for now..


  1. Carrie,

    Hello. I found your website from your email you sent me, I am Patrick Jay's mom, my mom lights candles for your angel Lila. I am so sorry to hear about your loss of Lila. I agree...it does help to be able to talk to other mothers who have gone through similar situations. My first son, Patrick, was a stillborn. It completely devastated me, but we were so blessed to have our beautiful son, Daniel later in that year and now we are expecting again. Thank you for sharing your story, wishing you peaceful days ahead.


  2. I'd love to talk with you...we lost our 14 week old son, Graham, to SIDS 13 weeks ago (today). We are having such a difficult time...feeling alone and as though no one understands and life will never be not only the same, but "ok" again...
    I've talked with moms who have lost children, but would like to specificially be in contact with a mom who has lost a child to SIDS. I have 2 other children...4 and 2...

  3. Hi Shelly, our lives/stories sounds very familiar, my 3rd daughter Jessica Lana passed away 8/17/09 at 3 mos and 1 day old. I have two daughters Alyssa 4 and Mikayla 2. I would love to talk with you and I have found no one (except my therapist) to talk to that has been in my shoes to speak. I don't know what we can share on here but my email is rockette1@optonline.net